It is as though I had stepped through a door into a new life.  Everything seems different, more intense, more demanding and just 'more'.  Work is overwhelming me, thoughts of our impending calling are filling my head, and my inward, personal pondering seems quite sophisticated as if I have graduated to a new level of something.  Even our new phones seem a part of this new level as we are slowly adapting to a better way of doing some things.  There is so much that I don't understand, but my focus seems to be expanding to a bigger picture sort of view that I did not have before.  In a way it is a scary thing.  Makes me wonder about the amount of time that I have to do the 'more' that I now feel a responsibility to do.  I am trying hard to adapt to this new level of pressure and responsibility which I only see getting more in a very short period of time.  I know that I have 'prayed' it all for quite a period of time, but now that 'it' is here I have to deal with 'it'.  No one ever said that it would be easy (well, actually someone did say that it would be 'easy' if He became my partner, so perhaps my best effort is to make that happen.).  I guess that I can see that 'inward, personal' part of me as addressing that relationship.  I know that the growth and achievement in my 'communion' with my Savior will make all of the other things possible and possibly 'easy'.  I know that my study in 3 Nephi 19 this morning seemed to address that process.  In His short visit His priority was to teach, baptize, confirm and 'become one' with the people in order for the 'process' to begin between Him and each of them.  It is that same 'process' that I am talking about.  All of this relates to my relationship with God and what it requires from me as I progress.