When Sheila  read my recent posts  she said that I had left out a lot of detail.  I knew that I had, and I felt lucky to have done as much as I did.  I figure that it will be hard to go back and fill in all of the blanks, so I won't even try.  But I will try to do better as I move forward in this new effort.  I have already let it slip a few times and I am feeling a lot of pressure to do every day all of the things that I have on my mind.  In fact, I hardly know myself right now and although I do like what I do see, there seems to be so much more going on that I don't seem to notice much, because my mind is so full of stuff.  It seems that I have to force myself in everything and nothing comes normally to me.  I can't really explain it to myself, but I do feel like I am somehow on a higher plan, or at least putting out a lot more effort.  Maybe it will get easier over time, but right now it takes a lot of effort and I'm not used to that.  There is just so much more going on in my life, and I am trying to do so much more then I have done before.  Even my sleep time demands more from me and I am not yet used to giving and doing so much.  It gets very tiring.  But it is also strangely rewarding.  I actually think that I am really 'making a better me'.

I really took it easy today.  I didn't do 'nothing', but I watched a lot of football and some tennis, and I used the BYU game to do my hour of exercise so I felt pretty good, and I still have a bit of that 'glow' that gives me a feeling of well being.  I feel pretty good about my week and even better about the fact that my Monday is pretty much assured.  This week with the holiday ended up below my average, but next week looks to compensate, and bring me back to my average.  I was able to close out another week today.  One of the things about the day that was slacking was that I did not shower again, but tomorrow early will take care of that.  No mission tomorrow, but we will leave near the same time to go to Amy's baby blessing and then lunch at Shauni's and then our family home evening tomorrow night.  I should have a good night, and once I get up and going my Sunday should be pretty much about all that it can be.

Still trying to get used to this new format.  Right now I am so tired that I really don't want to do this, but I am going to do it because I need to.  Don't know exactly why though, but I am doing it regardless.  Yesterday I did mention our new car, and our future new neighbors.  I didn't mention Sheila's new job.  It is new because she is now a five hour lady instead of 3 and 1/2 and because of the new car I am getting up and taking her to work and picking her up at 12:30.  It does change my schedule some, but I don't mind it.  Our whole family is another year older now too.  Nicholas is back from his  mission and back in school at SVU (Southern Virginia University) and Cortney is well into her freshman year at Air Force, having gone through boot camp and stuff.  Linzi is coming up on her 1/2 way mark in a couple of months.  Later this month Lucas turns 8 and gets baptized.  All of the grand kids are just growing up all over the place.  As for us, well, we are getting older and hopefully wiser.  For myself, I like this stage of my life.  There is so much more for me to learn, and it does help to have already learned a lot.  I am really trying to understand myself.  I've known me for almost 68 years, but I do have a ways to go yet.  I am intrigued with this person who is me, and yet doesn't always seem like me.  And I am so grateful for Sheila  more and more everyday.  I was never smart enough to make that decision.  I know that I had help and there was more orchestration of that deal then I was aware of at that time, but now I see it more clearly and I couldn't be more thankful and thrilled.  And I am just beginning to understand what it means for our future.  Now that really excites, and humbles me!!

It is hard to form a habit.  It may be more difficult to get back into a habit that was once easy and long lived after you let it slide for several months.  Not only is the actual doing of the thing hard to do, but this particular period of my life has been so eventful that I hardly know where to start and how I can really do justice to everything.  I am sure that it will take several entries to really catch up I also have to get used to a new format.  When Robert updated my computer everything changed and some things are simply harder to get used to.  In fact, I have had to find or adjust several things that are different or were lost from the set-up that I had used for years.  And right now I am trying to get used to doing a lot of new things for the month of September.  I have been getting up early to take 

Sheila to work, which means that I pick her up at 12:30 p.m..  That has required an adjustment to my lunch schedule and has been a little hard to adjust to, that is, getting up near 6 each morning that she has to go to work.  One of the things that is new is our new (used) car.  We've had it about a month.  I will write more about it later.  The next major thing is that Shelli and Phil are going to buy the house next door, and will be our neighbors before Thanksgiving.  Phil finally got a new job and he works less then a mile away.  (Robert also started his new job on Tuesday.)  We extended our mission and

are now just in to our 2nd year.  I am trying to do things to prepare for my doctor's appointment in the 1st week or so into October.  I tested high in April for a certain thing and he had me come in July, and I am working on trying to lower it with my new regimen.   I am simply trying to improve in several different ways, and I am finding it quite demanding.  In fact, right now I am very tired and I need to finish and print this and get off to bed.  I will try to work harder and become more.  It is harder then I imagined that it would be.  But this is evidence that I am making some progress.

I finally did it.   I've been at this for several days trying to figure out how to recover my blog after the work that Robert did on my computer.  He brought it into this century and I  have been so pleased with it, except that we lost some things in the transition.  I have recovered most of the sites that I use in my work, but when I decided to start up my journal writing again I had a dickens of a time finding it (recovering it is the proper term).  I even resorted to asking Shelli for help earlier today, and she did put me on the right track.  When I had a minute and thought about it all I researched and finally found the pass word and sign up information the I had recorded way back in 2012.  With some better information and relying on the direction that Shelli had given I think I am where I want to be.  I'll know if this entry actually prints and if I have really saved (bookmarked) this site.  Oh, it is almost 5:30 p.m. on Tuesday on the 2nd of September, 2014!!!  I have so much catching up to do, but for now I will see if I am back where I want to be.