Today the best part of my day was my early morning devotional.  That's what I call my quiet time before I get out of bed and I just lay there and ponder on the thoughts that I have from my scripture study or the ideas that are currently in my head.  This morning was particularly good because I was able to  put an answer to a question that I have been thinking about for a few days.  I feel like in those times I do receive inspiration and I believe that is what I got this morning.  It just seemed like a key piece of a puzzle was right there and it tied a lot of my recent thoughts together.  One of the thoughts that led to this new answer was that I realized that I actually see my dreams and goals as out of this world.  What I mean by that is that I don't seem to get too excited about my regularly routine things.  I do like to think about things such as truth and gospel principles and eternal things like relationships and family.  Work takes a back seat for me and I wouldn't like it at all if I didn't see it as an important part of being able to have those other things that I mentioned.  You have to be able to pay the bills, and put food on the table (and in the pantry) and maintain a shelter over your head.  But I like it when I don't have to think about those things and I can just let my mind soar and ponder about eternal things and things to come.  That's what I do almost nightly when I wake up and its still really early and I get out of bed and sit in my chair and try really hared to exercise the heart and soul of me.  I have learned that it takes as much effort to be effect at pondering as it does at any other kind of work.  But I have been at it long enough that I am really quite good at it.  The only drawback is that when my pondering is really, really good it makes me wish that I didn't have to go back to work when the sun comes up.  I wish that there was a way to just do that all of the time.  But alas, each day does come and bring the reality of life and I get to it usually feeling better about it because of the time I spent in 'devotion' or maybe even 'communion'. And at the end of the day I look forward to that time again and again.  I sometimes worry that I have created my own fantasy world and I need to be more realistic, but then if you really loo9k at it the gospel is another world.  And it does encourage us to seek what might be called another reality.  It seems to work for me but then I just might be as crazy as a jaybird.

I just got back to this entry and I finished it off and edited it after losing it  cyberspace and somehow getting it back again.  I'll print it again and the evidence will be on the other side of this page.