Being fully immersed in my work now on my 4th day back and into my new era I don't have much time to think.  But I still take time, especially in the early morning moments and then on and off through out the day.  It seems that much of this new plateau thing is directly related to my pondering process which seems to be so much more advanced and serious then ever before in my life, like I am finally getting to the graduate stuff after learning important, but preliminary up to now.  I am not comparing me to anyone else, but just evaluating my own personal progress which does seem to be about really important truths that I need to know and perhaps should have gotten before.  (never too late!)  What I wrote 2 days ago felt really good to me.  I continue to ponder and build on that and so much other connected truth.  My work load seems so pressing, but I realize that Disneyland isn't possible all of the time.  I do enjoy what I do, but I struggle to find the compatibility with it and the high thoughts I am experiencing.  But this stage of my life, whatever it turns out to be is really special and I look forward to it as it unfolds one day at a time, frustrating as it may be.