I hadn't thought that it had been a whole week since I last wrote.  But apparently there is a routine forming that I am not aware of.  Last Wednesday I got into my office earlier and again today.  Sheila isn't even gone off to work yet and I am here, so I need to take advantage of this extra moment and do this.  I have had a thought (among many) hanging around for a few days that I want to articulate for me as well as for this entry.  I expressed it to myself this way:  "I am receiving executive pay for blue collar work."  What I mean by that is that I am feeling so very blessed (actual feelings) as if I were earning based upon great service or fantastic talents.  I feel compensated way beyond what I am actually doing (as if we can actually 'earn' blessing anyway).    Sure, we are showing up at our assignment, but not much more.  I am not teaching.  I am still struggling with knowing all of those fine folks by name.  I just sit around a lot.  Yet, I feeling as if we are doing this great thing.  I 'feel' it.  It is hard to explain, because it is hard for me to understand.  But it is so real to me.  I am living on a higher plane then before and I don't deserve it.  Maybe that is my 'key'.  Do we ever deserve 'it'?  I just know that this is where I want to be.  So for now I'll keep on serving meagerly and graciously receive my unjust compensation and journey on.