Years ago when I was young (!) and way before most of you were born (all of you except Sheila) there was a t v show called "I led three lives".  It was about a spy, a counter spy and a 'regular' guy trying to juggle those three different lives.  I thought of that this morning while I was thinking about what is going on in my life right now.  It seems to me that I am recognizing two sides of me that have existed side by side all my life, but now are really starting to define themselves.  I could be talking about my natural man and spiritual man thing, but in this case I am talking about my role in this world and my role seeking the next world.  Kind of my 'in the world, but not of the world' conflict that isn't exclusive to me, but we all carry the same duality.  And coming off of a Sunday and starting this Monday it is really on my mind.  It brings so many questions to my mind.  Right now it seems like a real live struggle.  I am tossed about in my head trying to figure it all out.  Hopefully I can find clarity and when and if I do I will let you know.   And, yes, Cicily I did read your latest 'school' entry before I wrote this.