It's as if my idea hasn't completely hatched, but I feel a need to write down what it is so far.  I hope that in the writing it may continue to take shape or at least I will have recorded where I am right now so I can then take it where it needs to go.  I realized this morning that I have pretty much lost my focus about a lot of things in my life.  We are in a new stage in our life and we face some things that we haven't quite figured out yet.  My own personal 'set' seems a bit out of synch and searching.  So there I was laying in bed this morning doing my pondering and I was taken back to a time long ago and far away when I was in a similar situation.  We had just come home from the hospital with Sherri.  I was given a very real, yet subtle lesson about my priorities.  I came to know that 'now' I was number 3.  It took me a while to really accept being # 3 and even longer to understand it.  But it did become my reality, and has been ever since  (dropping from 3 to 10 eventually).  I guess that since then I haven't figured out just where I stand.  And our present seems to have exacerbated that problem.  Perhaps that IS the problem.  Where do I stand?  I look at it as a spiritual problem trying to figure out my place.  Not exclusive to me, I know.  But maybe I now have a starting place: back then it finally became clear to me, so I hope that it will do so again as I consider it.