She didn't say 'good bye' to me this morning.  She did say 'will you do me a favor?'.  Knowing that I could hardly refuse, I asked what that might be.  She said 'at 9 turn the crock pot on low'.  I changed my wedding ring to my left pointer finger to help me remember. So now I have a bit of anxiety about that small task that has been entrusted to me.  I usually do a pretty good job at stuff like that, but sometimes I forget to remember.  Sometimes I feel my ring on my 'remembering finger' and don't remember why it is there.  Such is my life!  I see this hierarchy of my reality.  There is this higher area of hopes, dreams, aspirations and ideas about how I want things to go and what I want to do.  Then there is this area of reality which is really never the same.  And I have to acknowledge a third area I will call 'hindsight reality'.  That is where you look back and examine things and see how they really fit into a larger scheme of things.  Just as reality affects anticipation of things, it also affects our history of things.  Sometimes we are able to see the 'threads of our lives' that have been woven into something much more then we had realized during that moment of living a particular thing.  I have heard the statement that God can do more with our lives then we can, and  believe that that is true.  That is where the 'history of our reality' comes in.  That is when we look back and realize that things are never quite as bad as we thought that they were, and sometimes actually catch the vision of just how wonderful they really are.