Funny how things are affected by other things.  Here I am at 20 to 7 already up and dressed because of Sharon. She invited her mother to go with her to this legislature wives thing about the books being donated to a west side school, so Sheila went into work early.  The alarm was set for 5 and although I could have stay in bed I did get up and going early.  I have been thinking about what I wanted to write and my first item is the paper yesterday.  On page D6 (sports section) I found 2 grand children listed: one under wrestling academic all-state (Colton Anderson) and another in the top 25 girls basketball 3-point shooters (Cortey Porter @ # 19).  I relished that for the rest of the day, which turned out to be a bit unusual.  My work was pretty normal, but Sheila was once again gone doing nice for family and I was pretty much left to myself.  So I finally got to one of my 'lesser' tasks that I've had on my mind for actually months (maybe even years!).  I started to organize my journals.  I found that once I got into the actually task it was much bigger then I had supposed.  I made one small step, but it will take a lot more work and if my past effort is any indication, it won't be finished for a long time coming.  Sheila's service pushed other stuff until past dinner time, so off we went together around 7:30 to get gas, drop off work at Sharon's and then I surprised her by taking her to a late dinner at Cafe Rio!  Afterwards I asked her if I am still capable of surprising her.  She said: "all the time".  That made me smile.  With that luncheon thing at the capitol today looks to be as disjointed as yesterday, and I really don't know what all to expect.  I am feeling such pressure to 'perform' and I need to get used to it.  It's not a bad thing, but goes contrary to worldly ideas about empty nesters and old people and slowing down and golden years and retirement.  All of that is pretty much bunk.  I just feel overwhelming pressure to do, act, perform, accomplish and fulfill.  So you youngster, enjoy your hectic family raising days while you can.  Getting older may just end up getting busier.  Think about it!