Ah, Monday morning.  So many emotions.  Such confusion.  And it is more-so coming off a super weekend like we just lived.  If it could only just be like that all week.  But it is not, and I must change my frame of mind to deal with the reality of Monday.  I have been trying to avoid Monday coming, but you know that that can't be done. So it is here and so am I.  'sigh!!!'  However, the quality of my Saturday and Sunday soften the edge of the reality of Monday.  Our experience at the Manti temple Saturday was absolutely wonderful.  And the FHE on Sunday continued the euphoria.  And I know that we have another event tonight in the same vein, so I know that I will make it through even if just on memories.  Perhaps it is a good thing that right now (today, so far) my work is a little slow because I have so much else going on in my head and in my life that I feel overwhelmed.  Some of it is deeply personal and most of it is family with a little anxiety over work thrown in.  Wondering and not really knowing takes a toll when amped up to a high level.  And I put such pressure on myself to figure it all out.  Guessing at everything that is current is bad enough and then you add trying to guess things in the future and it becomes quite a conundrum.  How can I do it all?  Why must I try to do it all?