I guess that I am used to what life is.  I understand what is required and for what results.  So my life has become much more a 'choose and realize' kind of thing.  I know that when I am 'diligent' I feel the positive rewards, and when I slack I feel those results too.  I pretty much 'get what I pay for'.  But I know that there is also something more to 'it'.  Often we don't really get 'what we pay for' because we do get blessings beyond our 'wages' and are saved from some 'paybacks' in ways that we don't quite understand, but call 'blessings' when we understand a little.  I have, however, arrived at a point in my life where I am aware that I pretty much control my results by choosing the way that I do.  I know what to expect. And yet, I still settle for less so often that I wonder about my smarts and why I do what I do.  I am able to blame some of it on my age, both good and bad:  I am older and therefore I am wiser and do often choose better, but I am older and feel effects that tend to make me less energetic to choose what I know will be for good.  In other words I sometimes feel just too tired to do what I ought to do.  So I have learned something of using my mind more and better because I don't seem to get too tired to think and actually find it a most rewarding exercise.  But thinking can only do so much.  There is much that I simply have to 'do', fatigue or not.  That is an area that I am trying to improve in.  So here I am near the beginning of a new day of opportunity.  Already done with a number of tasks, but with most of my day ahead of me I am actually excited to see if I can do it well.  I know that my day will be just how I choose it to be.