It seems like a duty right now, more then a habit.  But I have begun because I am now twenty words into my latest entry.  I guess that I can accurately describe it as an exercise of faith, a leap into darkness or an exercise of the unknown because so far I have no clue as to what I will write.   --pregnant pause--  I want so much to have an influence for good, to make a difference, but I also believe that the more I do and the better I get the more humility becomes real and defined for me.  I am beginning to truly understand what it is and especially what it does.  And I am becoming more, but thinking about 'it' less.  I am becoming stronger, but more dependent on strength for another source.  I see me actually increasing by actually decreasing.  If all of that makes sense to you you understand what I am feeling.  I am always trying to dissect words to understand what they mean and what I mean as I use them and 'humility' is one deep word.  Perhaps my best understanding of it is that you don't use it to describe yourself.  That has to come from somewhere else.  You know, if you claim it then you really don't have it. So understanding its true meaning you 'pursue' it in a really different manner.  Like going after something by not going after it.  So I have plenty before me on this Tuesday.  My best wishes for each and all of 'you-all'.