I've been sitting upstairs with a house full of family. We were at the dessert part eating strawberry shortcake and rice krispie squares when it hit me.  I need to go to bed.  Its been a long day for me with little else but family.  I can't court anything as  work but I guess I can count some time in serious pondering which I have enjoyed.  But with Robert and family here this morning for breakfast and then their Easter egg hunt and others starting shortly thereafter and lasting until now (and probably beyond my bedtime) my time has been full and rewarding.  I have enjoyed myself and I especially liked the book that the kids and grand kids gave to Sheila for Mother's Day. I have well spent my energy.  I thought that the Easter egg hunt in the afternoon, which we were able to have outside because this morning's snow finally melted, was one of our best.  I can still see Linzi climbing the tree to retrieve the egg that Robert had placed there when he was here earlier.  Also, we were able to announce that Cicily is pregnant.  We had known for a few days, but were asked to keep it quiet until she gave us permission this morning.  So with Shauni due in July (hoping for June) and Cicily due in November that make 2011 special for 2 more reasons.  The only thing I would have wanted in addition is for Nicholas to have been here.  Instead, he is in Florida in a business related high school competition.  It is almost time for him to be graduated and off out into the cold, cruel world.  As for me, I've been in that same cold, cruel place now for for almost 45 years.  I don't know if I love it but IT IS WHAT IT IS and I'll settle for being here as long as I can continue to have my family around me as I fumble my way through it hoping and heading for something more and better in the future.

My thought for today:  'Your task to build a better world',  God said, I answered 'How?'  'The world is such a large place, so complicated now, and I so small and useless am, there's nothing I can do.'  But God in all His wisdom said, 'Just build a better you.'