My priesthood lesson in two weeks is about 'desire'.  I have put in a lot of time pondering the subject.  I have also done some time fantasying about it.  There are so many things that I would like to be able to do 'if'.  But I know better.  I've spent a lot of years learning what I can't do.  I'm pretty used to it now, so I try not to waste time thinking about those things that are simply outside of my own personal realm of possibility.  But when it come to family I do wish more often hoping that somehow the situations will be met even if I am unable to meet them.  I guess that I a pretty normal that way.  Most decent people would like to see good things happen and many do what they can to try to help.  I am so limited in what I can do, but I still try to do something and hopefully something of what I do do is helpful.  All I can do is what I can do in the situation that I am in. 

If I keep my 'desire' in reasonable territory there is still a lot that I can ponder on and hopefully do to set them in order and try to define them and try to do something about them.  The other night I realized how much my desires have changed.  I had asked myself the question:  'Do desires change?'  I answered my own question: 'They better be able to change or we would be in a sorry state.'  It is an interesting study to examine our most personal desires and see how they have changed from our early days and throughout our lives.  It is a pretty good measure of our own growth to measure the growth of our desires.  We are told that what we desire most will be what we become.  But sometimes we try to fool ourselves and think one think and do another.  Our desires have to be consistent, persistent and resistant and we must be insistent! If we can do all that with honesty and integrity we will find joy along with whatever else it is that we have desired to become.  If you think that that sounds simple you haven't lived much.  It isn't.  But worth it, no matter the price, yes.