Sometimes I just sort of check out and turn into a zombie.  It is usually due to a down moment like when I come to the end of a day at the end of a week.  I turn off and look to start all over when the sun comes up.  Thinking about it I realize that I have not always had the luxury to be able to do that.  It is actually a nice privilege that I have not always been able to enjoy.  I know that I am only taking leave of my senses for a short time and I will get back on track and do what is expected of me.  But for a couple of hours I just let go and watched a movie on TV more because it was on then  because I wanted to watch it.  It did end up being quite sad, but it was a different story and did catch my interest.  Anyway, I had gotten back from the church and Sheila was still tending kids so I just sat down and entertained myself.  I did hear the sounds that I figure was Robert coming to get the kids and now I wonder what Sheila is doing.  I remember doing stuff like this when I was a teenager.  During the summer when there was no school I would stay up late and watch an old movie just because I could and I didn't have to get up early.  We did have quite a busy afternoon.  We had what turned out to be lots of errands that we did before we went to dinner.  When we got home Sheila called Shauni and we sang (!?) happy birthday to her.  I' m sure that she could have done without that, but she just took it like a good sport.  I feel a little pressure to sort of rebound now.  I do have my regular nightly rituals to do before I can go to bed.  But at least I did my duty here.  So tomorrow will be the 1st day of the rest of my life, and it will be a good, new start with plenty to do if I allow myself to think about it.