I have been so tired today.  I don't feel sick, but it feels like something more then just being old.  The only thing that got me going was when I had the thought:  "I'm not dead yet, so I might as well do something."  That did keep me grinding away at one small task after another, but I never did feel like I was in a 'work mode' or 'groove' or in a 'zone'.  I just felt tired, but kept on moving.  I did get some good work done, I just never felt really good about it.

We had our FHE old folks get together for food and discussion time tonight.  It lasted until almost 10.  I left to go do my church thing and Sheila drove home and was here to let me in.  I know that I want to go to sleep, but I also know that I will sit up and ponder some too.  I'm close to feeling good about myself, but I'm not there yet.  I just need time to relax and put the world away for awhile so I can grow some positive thoughts.  It seems like I do this to myself every once in a while.  I let things bother  me and I forget all that is good around and about me, but all I have to do is be honest with myself to know how much I have going for me.  It is all there.  I just need to let it find me.  Watch it happen!