Here I was working through the day meeting challenges and doing difficult things that had become routine for me.  I even thought for a moment how well I do this job that I have been doing for so many years.  I stared my wind down for the day and Sheila reminded me of the indexing on the church website that we wanted to look at.  So after my hour of exercise I called her down and we started going through it.  Yesterday I had attended priesthood meeting and there was a presentation given which I felt gave me a lot of good information.  I felt ready to tackle it and wanted Sheila to see the material and we would be off and running.  They made it sound so simple.  Then we tried to make sense of it and I felt so dumb.  It just confused me and now I doubt whether I will ever get it enough to do it.  I tell myself that its like this whenever something new comes around.  And I know that that is true.  But right now it seems impossible.  All of those folks in the ward and stake that do it are way up there to me.  Maybe, I can't figure it out.  Oh quit it!  You've been here before many times.  Just keep after it.  It will eventually become routine.  I know that.  But this feeling now, well I don't like it.  It is a nasty feeling to face something new that shakes you up and even knowing that eventually I will get it doesn't make me feel any smarter.  Check back again in 6 months!