I figure that I will probably never be fully satisfied with my day. That seems to just be my nature. I do know that I want them to be good and then better. But here today was really pretty good and I find myself thinking of how it could have been more after being satisfied for a nano second. I was able to coax myself into action 2 or 3 times and tonight I even did my 60 minutes on the bike which was satisfying and will last for a little while as I still feel the effects of the work out, but even with that I wonder about doing more and better. I woke up feeling pretty positive and it carried over to my day. I adopted a new theme: "what do I really, really want that I can actually do something about right now--or today?" I just kept asking myself that question when I got distracted or tired or maybe bored. I did take a short nap when the answer to the question of what I really, really wanted was to take a nap. But the result was positive and I denied myself that luxury the rest of the day. I did leave myself stuff to do tomorrow and the answer to my question may take me to reading or cleaning off that table in our bedroom. But I'll keep on asking it and trying to be actively engaged in activities that will be better then some that I have fallen into lately without that question. Perfection is not my goal here and now (certainly later and when it is right) so I need to get better and get used to quick celebrations and transitions into what ever comes next.
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