I really need to get this entry in before the year ends.  It has been since the 22nd that my mind has been blank and my pages have been left unfilled.  It has been since then that I have been ill and although some days were worse then others I have never felt up to the task of writing.  I hoped from day to day that I would break out of  my mental muddle and feel like writing, but it only got worse.  I had a couple of times when I thought it would end, but it did not.  I was blessed on a number of occassions to be able to get out and function my way through some family functions and a few church events.  But this past Sunday both Sheila and I were afflicted enough that we did not go to church.  In fact, I spent virtually the whole day reading a new book, that I am going to return to as soon as I finish here.  I can do that okay, but even this entry right now seems difficult to do because of how poorly I feel.  I know it won't last through all of 2013, but with this two weeks plus now I even wonder about that. So I end 2012 looking forward to 2013 and hope that sooner or later I will return to my old self and just keep on keeping on for another year that I have high hopes for.