I have a card here on my desk that says: "I think it's very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not defined by another person." Oscar Wilde. I spend a lot of time by myself. I have for a long time, and I figure that I do it well. But I know that when it gets toward time for Sheila to get back home I get excited for her to walk through the door. Often, I hide to sneak up behind her and surprise her or, I just sit in our bedroom waiting for her. My day does change when we are together. And I look forward to events with the family. I have described myself as a 'hermit' or a 'recluse' and I do play those roles a lot throughout the day. But I have to admit that I am more of a social person then I have admitted to myself these years past. I enjoy Sundays to be around our ward friends, and times spent with old friends is always good for me. My favorite moments are when we are with family. I wouldn't say that I am particularly glib or socially proficient, but I sure enjoy just ,wherever, watching you-all. I feel like I fall short in that area, hence, our 'grandparent spring-break' plans, but it is still the part of my life that puts the wind in my sails. I sometimes wonder how good of a 'grumpa' I really am and if I communicate well enough in that area to you so that you know what each of you mean to me. So, my effort right now is to do my 'hermit' thing well when appropriate, but to also be better when in that other arena. After-all, ALL of my time is dedicated to the single purpose of family, whether I am alone or with any or all of you-all.
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