I realized that I do have opportunities to get excited in my own life.  I wrote a card that sits on my desk and say:  "What is a win?"  It helps me see that I have 'wins' in my life all of the time.  I so often overlook them or fail to define them as such, but they are there.  Yesterday I found one when Sheila walked in the kitchen from work and I saw her face when she saw her new furniture.  She said 'wow' many times and was quite taken with the sight.  That was a win for me.  Later on Cortney's game was a win for me too in a different way.  Several of our family was there which made it all the better.  I had wins in my work and in my time with Sheila.  I had wins in my study and in my routine stuff that contributes to my total day.  I even had a win when I tested my blood and took my blood pressure.  I have become so good at downplaying stuff, but I need to get smarter and 'see' what is going on around me.  Today has lots of new opportunities for wins.  I am really beginning to see my journey in a new light.  I don't understand why is looking this way to me.  Like I said:  "I have become so good at downplaying stuff".  But that is changing.  I am changing.  Life is changing for me.  Is it a phase?  I hope not.  It feels permanent and real.  Maybe I have taken another step for good in my journey.  I'm not going to fret about why.  I am just going to accept it as real, work with it and seek a new definition to my life.  After all, isn't it true that each new day is the beginning of the rest of our lives?