I am beginning to grasp a little bit more about who I am these days.  Last night we did our Wednesday night missionary thing and I felt quite useless.  Mostly I just sat around being quiet and trying to learn about what it is that I am (or will be) doing.  And yet when I take the time to try to take in the bigger picture I see that our blessings have not only kept up, but are actually way ahead of schedule.  It is as though we are getting executive pay for peasant work (which peasant work I, as yet, am not able to actually do during my training).  I just show up and it is enough.  I look to be there soon, but I am not there yet, and it is enough.  My baby steps seem to be compensated as if they were giant steps.  It is enough even though I, myself, am not 'enough', yet.  So, here in my office I am 'enough'.  I am competent and efficient and experienced.  Hopefully, that will also be the case sooner then later in my role where 'I carry a badge'.