It seems to me that I should work harder, do more and generally be a better person.  But as the day goes along I fall into a routine that has been my norm for years.  I have changed some things like my push ups and I have added to my routine a morning scripture reading time, but I worry that I should be doing more.  My emotions still go up and down as does my 'fret quotient' about my work. But usually I am able to relax and take what comes. My 'It is what it is" comes into play a lot and I am learning to live with it better then I have in my past.  I guess that I have learned what I cannot change and I am working on learning the things that I can change.  That apparently is the more complicated of the two and takes longer to learn.  So there is still hope for me.  I give Sheila credit for some thoughts that I am trying to 'ponder' now as she remembered a few talks from a visiting teaching message that we were able to find on the internet and print a copy for each of us.  It fits well with my effort at understanding 1 Corinthians chapter 13 subject:  charity.  I didn't spend any time on it today (except for my morning read) so I will try to do some time with it tonight before I go to sleep.  That may be hard because I am really tired.  I must have worked harder today then I thought.