Sheila called it a 'cliff hanger', but it really was more of a 'yawner'.  But whatever the name I did stay down here an extra few minutes to watch the end of the game the outcome of which was never in doubt.  I thought that I could handle getting up around 7 because Sheila had to get up first and I would shower and have time to eat some breakfast and get dressed and to choir in time.  The reality is that our ward choir does not start at 8.  Only the director and our recently called accomp..the guy who plays the piano and me are the only ones there for a while.  Sheila was there shortly thereafter and we actually did end up with more then we've had before because the Bishopric decided to join us so they would be a good example to all of those who really should be there.  When Sheila got there she came wheeling in a suitcase as if she was about to board a plane.  But I knew that it was just her Sunbeam preparation kit.  We had our block and then hurried to Robert and Cicily's ward where Lucas and both of his parents spoke.  Since then we have enjoyed a lazy day.  But lazy days are as tiring as non lazy days so I am ready to wind down.  Tomorrow starts a new work week that has me a little apprehensive.  For the last two weeks I have had lots of work.  But we got all of the papers served and they haven't yet been replenished.  So this week looks bleak at this moment.  I know it will be okay.  It's been this way for 40 years.  I fret about not having enough work and then I'll fret when I have more.  I guess I just like to fret.  Then I have said that no matter the job there really isn't any security in the world.  I know the only security it in eternal things.  But I am human enough to still do my fair share of fretting.  I do like to fret and then get amazed when it turns around.  That way I always appreciate the blessings and acknowledge them as such but I fret about whether I ought to fret or exercise more faith.  How long will it take for me to see it turn out that way before I accept that it will keep on doing it?  Or am I just a flawed human being who somehow enjoys being a little cynical?  That is a good question for me to consider.  I welcome any opinions that you would venture to share with me.