My day has been pretty laid back.  I chose to sit upstairs and do a lot of reading and when I read I do tend to snooze some.  But it was so cold down here, and I chose not to do some of the work that I could have done.  I don't feel too badly about it though.  I did what had to be done, and my study time is important to me too.  For almost two weeks my work has been doing really well, but today it didn't.  I could fret and worry, but my work never does what I expect or want it to do anyway.  I try to live in another world which makes this world somewhat irrelevant. I know that sounds weird, but it is that 'in the world, but now of the world' thing and it makes some sense to me.  But it is hard to do, and can't be a 100 % thing either.  Some stuff just has to be attended too.  The trick is to find that balance and I try.  I haven't found it yet, but I have been flirting with it for a long time. Life is weird enough without that, but add that in and it really gets weird.  It really brings on that 'spectator' feeling for me.  You know, that sensation of you just being there watching your life go on without you, or at least, going out in spite of you.  Ever felt that way?  Maybe I'm crazier then I thought I was.  But I still contend that life is a funny thing, and I don't even pretend to have it all figured out.  For now I am just glad that it seems like it will keep on happening for some time yet which means that no matter how badly I mess up today I will still have a tomorrow to try and to better.  You know, each new day does bring something new and unique, but it also repeats a lot of things as if to say that we need to keep on trying until we get it right.