I have tried to keep busy today, but I confess that I did doze off a couple of times.  And when I got to the end of the day it was hard to sit down here and do this.  So much for a good habit that lasted for so long.  Take some time off and it is like starting all over again.  Last night was the first night that I spent all of my sleep time in my chair.  I find it so comfortable to sleep almost sitting up.  I really don't know why sleeping in my bed is so uncomfortable, but it is, and the chair seems to be the answer for me.  I wake up quite refreshed and I am able to ponder successfully and have been blessed with some new truths that have inspired me.  I just feel like I am learning a lot, and it really feels good.  I guess at my age there has been a lot that no longer works, or no longer appeals to me, but learning is one thing that I am better at then ever before, and that I find real satisfaction in.  I am planning on being up early and off to get a lab test.  I will have to drop Sheila off at her work so that I will have the car,  but I decided to do it tomorrow instead of waiting until Saturday.  I worked a couple of hours tonight to get stuff done to free up my morning time.  I had stuff for Richard that I got done, so I don't have to worry about it in the morning.  Beyond that my Friday is pretty much up in the air.  I realize just how much that my days really depend on stuff happening to me as opposed to me making things happen.  I guess that it is like that for all of us.  I know that we have agency and all of that, but life seems to be more about how we deal with what happens to us then actually making our life into what we want for us.  That sounds like a good subject to ponder on tonight and into the morning.  I guess that there is a balance somewhere in there.  There has to be some control that we can exercise, but we certainly can't control much.  I read something the other day that said that all we can really control is our attitude and our ...I forget the other thing.  Maybe it is our 'will'.  Said that way though there really doesn't seem like we can really do much.  But those are really two very powerful things if we really do control them positively.  We do decide, and probably have much more power then we realize.