I'm not quite sure how or why I have fallen into this new routine of not writing during my weekends.  But to honor my tradition I feel a need record something about it.  As of last Friday I was in ponder mode about my thoughts and feels of the event of the past week and especially what Sheila had told me on Friday about it really being a result of what I had asked for.  I have been trying since then to 'wrap my head around 'that and figure things out.  It was a part of my focus on Saturday evening when we had our family temple outing.  At that time I hadn't found any real answer, but then on Sunday morning I had a thought that not only is an answer for my priesthood lesson this coming Sunday, but serves as a focus point for me in my pondering about my more overwhelming questions that I have been asking myself this past week.  I don't expect it to resonate for you without explanation, but I will share it and if any of you want to pursue it further, feel free to do so.  It is 'sense of place'.  (Told you it wouldn't make sense to you.)  Anyway, it is important to me and will require a lot of pondering before I 'mine' what this nugget has to offer me.  As for my weekend, both Sheila and I 'felt old' a lot during the last two days.  I even asked her about her thoughts about us dying.  We did talk about that for a time, but don't get the idea that we see it anytime soon.  We both feel that there is so much more for us to learn and to do.  But we do see the results of our age which changes the way that we will learn and do.  I had a most interesting experience in Sunday School yesterday.  I'm still trying to take it all in.  Sheila also had an interesting experience in her primary class.  I found her in deep conversation with her teaching partner who was obviously very emotional and might I say. distraught.  I see it as both of us giving service and sharing our individual talents in unique ways.  Our Sunday was mostly very quiet and refreshing, but also a reminder of my own desires to be able to do so much more and not having the opportunity or the energy to do so.  That also has lots to do with the 'sense of place' that has taken over my ponder place and apparently will require a lot of attention before it gets sorted properly.