Here I am again.  It seems that my routine is to not have a routine.  I went for a couple of days without writing and now its two in a row first thing in  my morning.  We got home later after an evening out and I was tired.  I had enough to do before sleep so I put it off.  I didn't give it much thought again until I got down here and felt this obligation to something to do this.  As I reflect on my yesterday (Monday) I recollect that much effort was given to my upcoming substitute lesson.  It worked out that I had some time to invest in it and I actually worked hard and seriously pondered on the subject of priesthood keys.  I felt edified and even through the night and earlier this morning I felt inspiration about the subject.  Funny how that works.  It is like discovering something.  I 'see' it so much more then I did and it is an amazing feeling.  I only hope that I can continue and ever remember it all so it will be there for me come Sunday.  I'm trying to go through all of the proper attitudes and rules of being a good teacher and reflect what I know and what Elder Nick wrote about in his latest e-mail home.  You know, about teaching the people.  I've always tried to do that.  I have my own unique way of doing it; a 'gift' as Sheila (and others) have told me.  I surprise myself as to how much it means to me to have another opportunity to do that this week, in this gospel doctrine setting.  Right now there is so much going on in our lives.  It is a constant effort just to manage my managing.  So much has to be left undone and so many choices need making as to how I spend my time.  Every day I seem to fall short in those kinds of decisions.  And what weighs upon me is that I feel that somehow it is only going to get more difficult to manage.  I need to get better at it faster then is comfortable.  On the other hand I am excited about what I see as progress on my path towards what is ahead.  My body tries to weigh me down, but my spirit sees this as a great time in my life.  It is a wonderful time for me.  Now I just need to learn how to tolerate my unwilling flesh and it would be almost perfect.