There are a lot of things that are hard for me to understand.  I see such strange behavior from virtually every one 'out there' and I scratch my head about how they behave.  But the thing that causes me the most bewilderment is actually my effort to try and understand myself.  Who am I and what am I doing?  I believe that the fact that I have turned my focus inward is actually a sign of significant improvement.  The idea of always looking outward to judge others is actually what you do before maturity and wisdom.  After time and experience you realize the foolishness of focusing on 'them, or everyone else' and finally turn you efforts inward.  After all, none of us are judged good or bad because of the way some one else behaves.  And just that change of focus is a significant leap of progress.  Once accomplished though doesn't make the 'inward understanding task' a piece of cake.  It still requires serious thought and time and effort to 'know thyself'.  But can be a fascinating journey of discovery.  And interestingly the effort to understand yourself does make the understanding of others more and better as well.  Now, I want to make this one point very clear:  All of this is very connected to the 'gospel'.  In fact, the gospel is actually the key to all understanding.  And I have come to the point where any effort of mine to understand more is really quite a pleasure and a joy.  I may not be able to run and jump as I once did, but I can run, leap and soar in my spirit and my mind and  my heart.  And that is exercise that I very  highly recommend.