I am suprized and disappointing as I sit down to write.  It is now 7:21 on the morning of May 6th.  I notice that my last entry was way back last Wednesday the 1st of May.  I could spend time trying to figure out what happened.  But it really doesn't matter.  I just let it go.  I didn't plan on it not happening.  It just did.  So move on and live with it.  I do know that a lot has happened in those 4 days.  I was really concerned with our p i liability insurance after the tax audit seemed to be resolved.  That also got resolved on Friday.  That night we ordered take-out (on our dime!) and we ate that 'feast' all the way into Sunday.  On Saturday I actually did get my old body working made headway on our project to clean out the storage room and get boxes of stuff out of this room and stored away 'neatly'.  That along with watching the 2 BYU national championship contests pretty much filled my day.  (they won the rugby match and lost the volleyball match)  Sheila helped out (a lot) in our storage room project, but spent lots of her day getting ready for our Sunday family get together.  On Sunday I did have time to work in a nap, but that was about it.  The block from 9-12 and a stake priesthood meeting at 3:30 and then the family descended before dinnertime and stayed until around 9.  It was a very busy day, and  a very wonderful day as well.  The kids took the opportunity to give Sheila a 'house shower' for her birthday (Thursday) and for Mother's Day (next Sunday).  It was total chaos for those 4 hours.  Sheila took opportunity to show Shauni the nearly empty pot which had been filled with the fixings for the Hawaiian Haystacks.  This family sure can put away a lot of food!  Amid all of that I have been pondering quite deeply thought that came to me at the priesthood meeting.  It was a very emotional experience for  me.  I had lots of deep feeling and thoughts that I have been studying on since.  They all play into our general conundrum of our stage of life and what it is that we ought to be doing with ourselves.  I really can't explain much, but I do have this sense of an underlying move of something.  I have no idea what or when or how.  It just seems to be there.  So for now we will be content to just take life as it comes and wait to see what might come along, if anything.  So much to do, so much to learn, so much that is just beyond the light waiting to enter in to our lives.