Sheila surprised me with a present today.  In fact, I am looking at it right now.  It really touches me in a good way when I look at it.  It is a picture of her that I have sitting on my desk right in front of me as I face the computer.  It is a very recent picture so she looks very grandmotherly, but somehow when I look at it I see the best part of me.  Saying it that way doesn't seem quite right, because it is her, not me.  But it makes me feel good for lots of right reasons.  It reminds me that we have grown older together, and also that we still have lots of mortality left as well as an eternal life together too.  It is fitting that we just had some time together watching  movie and just enjoying being together.  I wrote the other night about the fact that we don't seem to be together that much.  But it sure was nice, this past 3 hours.  With that and the holidays now upon us, and the end of the year time of reflection I am having some strange, but pleasant feelings.  I can't explain them, but it simply feels good.  It also feels 'pregnant' if I can use that word without alarming any one (especially Sheila!)  It seems like the right word to describe the way that this feeling feels:  'pregnant'.  I can't wait to see what that means.  Hopefully what ever it means it includes getting totally better and soon.  I really need to shower and shave too, maybe that will help!