This going to be one weird night.  I will go to sleep sometime and then long about 4-4:30 (probably closer to 5) I will be woken up to say goodbye to Sheila.  She'll be gone a week and when I wake up tomorrow my world will be different because we will not be together.  I haven't thought too much about it, probably because I didn't want to, but as much as I pretend that I will get along fine I know that I won't.  It is good for me though because it really makes me know how much I want her to be with me.  She has done her best to prepare things for me.  Tomorrow shouldn't be too bad because conference will keep me occupied for most of the time.  I do have work to do too.  And Sunday I will have both conference and a family reprieve.  Then Monday on I'll really notice her not being here.  I get over one pain to start another.  Different kinds but both unpleasant.  I will just try to keep busy and do my best.  Of course the possibility of simply 'vegging' is there.  That is the way that I handled the very first time when she went to Nauvoo years ago and the kids were farmed out leaving me alone.  I do better now and this won't be my first time being alone in our present empty nester stage.  So in some ways I am looking forward to it and in other ways I wish that it were already one week from now.  This could be an interesting test for me to see how well I handle it.