Although yesterday did count as a day lived and a day closer to my wife returning it didn't count the way that today did.  1 today was a work day and 2 I was on my own for all three meals and 3 I did drive away twice on very short errands, but spent most of the day here in this house and my office by myself.  I did take a short snooze once but never really got to take the nap that I thought about.  I will probably stay up later tonight just to have some time to ponder (pensive exercise), but I figure that I will get very tired very soon and not end up very late at all.  I did have a thought that hung over me this morning.  It has been my practice for a long time to follow the scriptures and 'pray over my flocks' (work) in order to ask for 'prosperity'.  Well, this morning I couldn't do that.  I kept thinking about those who have virtually nothing while I pray to have even more then I have now.  That just didn't feel right.  That has been some what of a debate in my mind.  I am surprised about the troubling thoughts about that that have come to me.  It makes me feel helpless to help the problem, prideful to as more for me, and grateful for what I am blessed with.  These are some very real and strong feelings stirring around inside of me.  I really feel like I need to study this all out very seriously.  My 's' for 'serious' is really getting 'serious', and I am surprised by the weight of these matters that seem to matter to me so much right now.  It really does seem that I did come away for general conference weekend a changed and better person for this discussion that has been thrust upon me and grabbed my attention.  Who knows, maybe it is a sign of good changes to come.