Another busy, busy day and I am ready for a break.  It was tiring, draining my energy, but it 'dulled' me even more because I didn't have much of a break all day.  I do like being busy, and I didn't work every waking minute, but more work then I am used to.  I sometimes wonder how those sweat shop workers from history past or 3rd world countries in the present do it. (or did it)  I imagine just laying down and giving up the ghost if I  had to work that hard.  So I am not complaining because I know that despite my complaints I have a pretty cushy job.  But now I need sleep as much to restore my energy as to restore my edge.  I just feel worn down.  And I still didn't get all of the work finished today.  Real close, but there is still some left over for tomorrow.  Funny how you can get to where thinking about what you will have to do in the future tires you out too.  I really need this night's sleep.  I hope that it is all that I want it to be.  

And I am still carrying around the emotional pain that I wrote about the other night.  All of us have pain, and I am learning a great lesson about block one to block two.  If you don't know what that is just ask me to explain it to you.  It is a major and essential part of my personal philosophy of life.  I thought I understood it well, but there is so very much to learn.  I figure that my education will continue well beyond whatever years I have here in this part of my journey and last for a longer period of time then I can even imagine.