I am running out of gas.  I am also running out of enthusiasm and am ready for my wife to get home tomorrow night.  I recognize that not only my energy has drained, but also I am becoming apathetic because my 'heart' has been missing now for almost a week.  I believe that I have done quite well to be at it until now.  But I feel tired as if it were Friday night.  So I plan to go to bed early tonight and try to regroup and refresh overnight.  I do want to watch a show at 8-9, but I am doing this so I can turn off things down here and go right up to bed.  I feel like I was productive today, but my week still has been quite slow.  There are a lot of factors that contribute to that, most of which are outside my control.  So what I can control I have tried to work hard at.  But I can't get guys to work and I can't get businesses to not have their own cycles of things, and I can't conjure up work.  So considering it all I am trying to do the best that I can do.  I can't underestimate how much Sheila being gone does affect me.  I have texted and talked to her today, but it isn't the same.  This whole week has been okay, but like I wrote above" my 'heart' has been out of town.