When I sit back at the end of a day and review what has taken place I sometimes have a different point of view then I had during the day.  And it is not always more positive.  I find that I wish that something had not happened or that something happened differently, or I sometimes appreciate something more the I did before.  I tend to be a little more negative when I get tired and that is a good thing to know about myself.  I do need to stop it because it is not really fair to the truth of what has really taken place.  And besides in the inside of my head things seem to get diminished rather then enhanced.  I am thinking that I just need to let the day go and concentrate on what is coming next.  I can't change it.  It is what it is.  And feeling badly about it is not productive.  All of this may seem like babbling.  But I see it as learning something new that I did  not know before about  myself.  Whether or not it will do me any real good remains to be seen, but it is something to think about.

 

It was good to spend time with the family (past and future).  And besides we ended up getting a free meal.  It is also good to realize that people will never be just what I want them to be.  It is a thing to be learned relative to block 1/block 2, and an important thing too. They are who they are.  I am who I am.  They are as much as I am.

 

Do you understand what I mean?