I didn't see it coming, but I am here all by myself tonight.  Shelli is going under the knife tomorrow to get her kidney stone removed and so her mother has been recruited to be there tonight and then tomorrow to spell her at home.  I can't complain, because that makes me a good guy too because I do so she can do and even though her 'do' is the real 'do' I guess that I get some credit too.  I did have such plans because today was her last day on the job.  I was going to put her right to work, but the spelling Shelli job actually started today at 1 when Shelli had a doctor's appointment uptown.  So I had opportunity myself and I actually fed Colton until he decided that he would rather wink at me and that he was finished eating.  I wouldn't have made a very good mother, but then I didn't have to because that was what Sheila was.  I tried to make today productive and I did do okay.  But habits are really hard to break.  I guess that's why they call them habits.  I am trying to take another motto or theme and use it to guide me.  I am using r.i.t.e.  (return investment on time and energy). That means that I am trying to do the 'rite' thing in my choices throughout the day.  Making better choices is always a good thing to strive for.  So now I try to evaluate them as to how much and what kind of a return I can expect from the time and energy I put out.  Seems so simple, but it is harder then I thought it would be.  I am pretty attached to some time wasting activities so I have to be real creative and using them better or rationalizing my choices better.  Hopefully I can be honest enough with myself and actually use my time better and make choices that really return something good for the time and energy put out.  It feels like a good and right thing to do so maybe this will be for me as successful as my p.u.s.h. u.p.s have been now in the 54th month.