I don't think of myself as being uncaring.  But I make myself wonder a bit when I examine me watching the news about this wild fire out in Herriman.  It was close enough to see the smoke and its been on all of the news outlets since this afternoon.  The latest that I heard was 3 houses and several other out buildings destroyed.  I know that it is devastating to those affected.  So I wonder if I am wrong to be 'hard' to it all.  I feel myself actually fighting the feeling and it is as if I could let it hurt a lot if allowed, but I won't do that.  So I guess that I can't say that I don't 'feel' its just that I defend myself to keep from feeling deeply.  Does that make sense?  I have a bit of a flash back to that February in 1966 (?) in Tasmania.  I was out in it then.  It destroyed several hundred homes and if my memory serves me correctly killed over 100 people (I'll have to check that out)  Since then I have seen a lot of tragedy, but I do not handle it well.  Maybe I am cold or hard or too tough.  And maybe I am just human and do my best to maintain so as not to feel too deeply and feel just how helpless I really am.