I actually remembered to take my blood pressure tonight.  I had set a goal to do it every day this month, but I had let it slip since last Thursday.  But today I got it done.  I think that I forgot to have lunch though.  I do that too sometimes.  Does that mean I am such a good worker then I just immerse myself in what I am doing or does it mean that I am just absent-minded?  It does seem to happen a lot.  I am trying to take advantage of every day, but I often find myself distracted by old habits and then I finally realize that I do have other options about how to spend my time.  My book is really helping out presently because I can spend hours just reading.  Funny, that was not something I could do not too long ago.  But I am finding it quite satisfactory right now.  I really wonder how long I will keep it up and how many books I can read this year if I put my mind to it.  I sometimes worry that it wastes time just like watching tv does, but I believe that that all depends on what you watch or what you read for that matter.  Either way, I am surprised a little at myself.  I could ask me: 'who are you and what have you done with me?'  Then I think about it and feel good to be different and in a good way for a change.  It does seem to me that I have entered into some kind of post-graduate program and that I have many lessons to learn and much to try to understand.  I almost yearn for my school days which seem easier then what I am doing presently.  Like then I went to school, but now school is coming to me in everything and in every way.  And the tests are actually harder then anything before even at BYU.  This schooling is for the prize, before it was just to get by and get on.  I am not really quite sure how to explain it, or if you will have any idea what I am trying to say when I do, but it does weigh on me in a good sort of way, and is something that I seem to have taken on just by my desire to 'endure' and 'continue' and not stop living.  I have said before that you either progress or digress and I guess that it is simply a natural result of progress or simply living.  I could stop it all, but that is a 'dive' that I just do not want to take.