I did try really hard to watch tv instead of leaving the office, but I actually turned it off.  The college football game appealed to me because a Mormon stars for Notre Dame, but that looks like a lost cause early.  The Jazz may win, but right now they may not.  Either way the appeal isn't much.  Then there's wrestling.  Even that seems like such a waste of time.  (Sheila will say 'yeah' when she reads this.) I have my book and maybe its this cold (frigid) winter weather or just dark winter nights, but I am done for the day here and just want to curl up with my book and go another couple of hours and then call it a day.  Work-wise it has been productive.  I have stuff to do tomorrow and I do hope that I can avoid having to go outside and tend to the pond in this frigidity.  I count my reading as my scripture study and as my ponder time, as well as 'get something positive done' time.  Right now it seems a good choice and it does have benefits as well.  It feels better then just watching most tv, at least the 3 programs that I mentioned up top.  I am enjoying the story and the gospel stuff that is woven into it.  I guess I am coming face to face with a stage of my life that before now I really didn't acknowledge, but now I am.  In fact, it is now obvious where just recently I wasn't quite as aware of it as I am now.  I really don't understand it much, and mostly it just raises questions, but it sure seems real and inevitable so let it come and I'll see where it takes me.  Right now  I am grateful for a warm house and the fact that the sun will come up in the morning.  It will still be freezing, but at least it will be day time.