It's actually my 2nd entry of the day, but it doesn't seem like it.  I am trying to get back in to the routine, and I am finding it harder then I would have imagined.  Right now my life seems a bit strange to me.  It's not like I'm outside of myself watching it happen like it has been before.  In fact, I really can't quite define it, but it does feel strange to me.  Everything seems to be some how hyped up or bigger then it has been.  Like I feel things more.  I am trying to look at myself and find the right words to explain, but I can't quite grasp what it is that I feel or how to explain it, even to myself.  I want my 'now' to expand so there is no need for a tomorrow, but that sounds really weird, even to me.  And tomorrow is as much a part of me as yesterday and today have been.  If all of that sounds really weird, well, I am feeling really weird.  If any of you have any suggestions I would like to hear them.  I'd like to say that there is no way that you could understand what I am feeling, but who knows, maybe you do.  If I can't explain it I can't say that I can put boundaries on it either.  But I do know that today is Tuesday, and I look to it to go away and turn into Wednesday.  What that means I do not know.  But sleep seems a magic elixir and all of a sudden I will wake up and right now will be way in the past and I will be different.  I don't figure I'll be anybody else, but the me I will be is not the me that I am right now, and then the next me will show up some time after that.  I just hope that each new version is somehow improved.