For some reason it seems to me that I am not able to relax and leave my world behind me.  Oh, I can nap and sleep through the night, but I seem incapable of pleasant day dreams like I used to have.  I keep thinking about stuff that goes wrong, or can go wrong, or stuff that happens that should make me stronger, but where is the relief.  Maybe that was one blessing of my week of pain that I passed over.  For about 8-10 days I was suffering so much that I did not think of anything else.  Can I now think of that as a positive.  If so it certainly was diminished by the fact that my mind was unable to focus on good stuff either.  I left so much undone during that time.  And I hurt so badly that it was hard to even care.  Well, I am moving forward now but my psyche is slower at recovering then I am.  I feel that that will take longer to fix then the bursitis, and I have no idea just how long that will take to be absolutely pain free and with no limit on my motion.  All of this feels like a new kind of test that has gotten gradually harder and harder as if to get to the point where I am unable to deal with it or too tired to try.  I am just surprised by what is happening to me and it will take me a while to get a handle on it all.  The lesson is some where right in front of me I just have to figure out what it is and then embrace it for my own good.