I did tough it out and I started my day of with 45 of them.  My shoulder has felt some better today and I am planning on another 45 before I go to bed tonight.  Other then that today has been pretty uneventful.  I did work, in fact, no not really, I did not work very hard.  I was hoping for more work to do and more work to get done, but that didn't happen either.  I am to calloused to let it bother me.  I have been disappointed for years and I am used to things not going the way that I would like them to.  I see us surviving and sometimes I just settle for that knowing that lots of good folks don't even do that.  It is hard for me to complain when I see others with so much less.  Last night I watched a show about the life of J K Rowling who wrote "Harry Potter" who, in 3 years went from welfare to the richest person in England.  I was happy for her success, but her life was something that I wouldn't want to struggle through.  Oh, I dream about the big bucks, but what price should I put on having the gospel in my life?  It may sound cliche, but I wouldn't trade that for anything.  I say I'd like to have both, but that doesn't seem to be the offer, so I'll take what I have and be grateful for it.  I do think about what comes next more then I have before.  After all, I'm closer to the end then I am the beginning.  And I see a little about how I can affect it for the good.  So I try to do that when I can and if I sacrifice a little of now for then, so be it.  'Then' is going to end up being a lot longer then 'now' is so it does deserve my attention.