Progress !? I have to admit to progress. But when you mix in too much impatience then progress becomes anxiety. I am at the stage where I play tricks on myself. I feel good enough to move this way or to try that and immediately I know that I am not 'there' yet. My time table just isn't obvious. But at least I am doing almost a days worth of work. I feel so slow, but I'm not sure that I was ever any faster when I was whole. So I start to feel more positive and then when I do that then my should starts to throb or ache or just hurt and I wonder where I really am. My home teacher called this morning to ask about the blessing that he gave me last Thursday night. I know that going from excruciating to just severe pain is a major step forward. But that subject can be another whole topic of thought and discussion. So I just try to back off and take it as it comes. I am in a routine. 2 Ibuprofan 3 times a day and my generic Lortab before I go to bed. Each day continues to be an adventure, but only different in style and actual substance (in my case: pain) from any of your circumstances. When Robert broke his Sears tool a 2nd time I wondered if I was any worse off then him. So I hope and pray for all of you, and my shoulder and wonder about how it will be different in the next act of this three part play.
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