Today was Father's Day and it was special for that and the children who define me that way.  But I just took a trip down memory lane by viewing the pictures that were posted about my brother, Denny.  So I see it now in a broader picture of father, children and mothers and wives----family!  I had not allowed myself to see that picture for a  long time.  I seem to prefer to live in the day and not the past.  But I cannot nor do I want to separate myself from that.  Even though it is hard to 'feel' the past it is a very special part of who I am.  Those pictures may have been mostly of Denny, but that was me too.  That was me growing up in a time and place that seems far removed from me.  But I really believe that it will still, someday, be even more a part of me when I am able to have it again.  It really is a similar feeling that I think about when I consider me being a father (and a grand father)  strange, surreal weird and a little haunting, but warm and nice.  Knowing that we have created 'this' is so hard to define, but so wonderful.  And it is a most confirming and gratifying blessing of my life.  'This' including my wife, our children, all the in laws and out laws and all of the prodigy resulting.  How blessed are we.