I don't understand why I've been reluctant to write today.  I should have done it first thing this morning when I got into the office.  I was actually here earlier then normal because Sheila woke me up at 6:33 instead of me laying in bed until after she leaves.  I did get a paper this morning (yesterday I was missed somehow.) And so I was able to check up on Cortney's game from last night.  When I read about it the words out of my mouth (actually one word):  'wow!!"  Quote:  "Cortney (finally got her name right) Porter had a very solid outing for Bonneville as she scored 26 points including six treys and added seven rebounds and seven assists."  [59- 41] They are now 15 and    0!  It was her highest scoring total ever (high school) and I value it more then a d-d.  She is first just a great person who happens to be quite an athlete.    

To continue, after a lengthy discussion with  my wife, I say that I have been obsessed lately with perfection.  The lesson that I am preparing for Sunday got me started and my heavy pondering has given me some serious thoughts that are resting rather uneasily on me. In fact, I am really quite unsettled about my ideas on the subject.  It is as if I am doing some graduate lab work on the subject and trying to grasp the subject that I once was comfortable with, but now seems to be challenging me to a much deeper understanding and a much better practice of principles related to the subject.  All of that being said it seems to really be a good thing, a positive step, greater light and knowledge and simply a more mature knowledge of something good.  Seems to be verifying that I am quite serious about this learning and growing and stretching and becoming.  I wonder if it will be something that can be noticed from the outside.  That's where 'yall' will have to be the ones who can answer that.