Here it is almost 10 and I am just starting writing my blog.  As you would expect for a general conference Saturday my day has been pretty much taken over by conference.  Six hours of the day taken for something doesn't leave lots for other stuff especially when you give about an hour in the morning to drive to the lab for my semi annual blood test.  Then take away 3 and 1/2 meals and some time to watch a little football.  I always enjoy the programs on tv between 12 and 2 on channel 5 too.  Somehow conference feels different to me this time.  I felt like I was more into it and I have some pretty serious thoughts still rolling around in my head waiting to be sorted out.  I am beginning to see what I thought was the real world as not the real world and what I thought was not the real world to be what is really real.  The hard part for me is to figure out how to live in this 'unreal' world while trying to put my effort into living the 'real' world which is mostly still to come.  That is starting to make sense to me which I believe is a good thing.  Brother Holland's talk had me lamenting the fact that I want more then anything to go (us to go) on a mission, but I can't see that as being possible.  So real or unreal nothing seems to be ideal.  I am trying to figure all of that out but it seems 'surreal'.  I'm starting to feel a little crazy so I better get to bed and get some sleep.  I did 5 push ups this morning and I'm going to try to do 5 more tonight before I go to bed.  I wonder if my medication is making me crazy!