I really feel badly that I am not doing my push ups right now.  I did do them some over the weekend, but I decided to suspend them in order to let my should continue mending and also because it really hurt when I did them even though I limited them to the 5 a couple of times and then to 10 a couple of times.  I feel like I let myself down but my good wife tells me that I need to be wise in how I recover from that flare up of bursitis.  I remember it as being very, very painful at it's worse and very painful most of the rest of the time.  I have gone 2 days without the pain pills now, and my motion certainly has improved, but even the thought of raising my arm above my head and some other more extreme movements has me too scared to even try them.  I did my push ups for almost 4 years and it makes me feel like I have failed, but I just have to deal with it and learn to see it in proper prospective.  I am still in treatment so I just have to live with that.  I just really don't know what the future will bring.  But I do know that I am seeing (and feeling) improvement.  But I also know that I am not yet at 100%.  I just have to live with that.  No one else 'knows the troubles I've seen' and I just have to learn to live with that too.