Sometimes it feels like a real chore to do this.  I debate whether it is worth it or not.  Then I think that I've been doing it for such a long time that it would be a pity to just let it stop because I get out of the mood.  I had a real good reason to stop my push ups (pain!) but I do feel a loss to be not doing them.  I believe that I will get back to them, but I know that it will be even harder, so I don't spend much time thinking about it.  I know that it is really a mind set that affects me in so many ways.  It is all just part of the test.  So I persevere and dream about better times.  Tonight I reached my left are straight u over my head.  It wasn't completely straight or  a real strong push, but I counted it as great progress even though it did cause me some pain.  I know that I am doing better and better.  Today ended up being a court holiday that pretty much snuck up on me.  I tried to make it work, but it pretty much didn't.  I did get some office cleaning stuff done, and we got our water heater problem solved temporarily but I see it as starting my week off behind in the #'s games.  It is normal for me to feel down when the post office is closed.  I don't always feel up even when it is open, but knowing there can be no mail makes that day feel less to me.  Oh well, plenty more days to come so I just see tomorrow as answering my prayers and if it doesn't there is always another one after that.  It just seems so hard to believe that these days are coming in October!  The relentlessness of time sometimes seems like the biggest burden. It just doesn't stop and sometimes I feel like I would like to.