I can't decide whether to stay up later or go to bed.  It's almost 10 and I really don't know what I will do.  Talk about free agency.  One thing that I am not free to do is to be totally free of this sore throat.  I don't know whether the fact that it is on the other side of my throat is a good thing of a bad thing.  I did have maybe 2 days when I had no pain, but then this thing snuck up and bit me again.  It is about the only bad thing except for the cold, cold weather.  I find that I just don't like winter weather now that I am older.  That old age should be a factor in my decision about bed or not.  I don't mind it at all:  sleep that is.  In fact, I know that I don't sleep all the time and I do enjoy the time I am able to think, and dream and review and plan and consider.  And I do all of that most every night.  I never fret about not being able to sleep.  In fact, one of my favorite things is to sit up in the blue glow of our clock in the dark of the night and just think.  My days don't give me a lot of time for that so when it comes in the night I try to take advantage of it.  I try not to fret over problems or negative things.  I may even day dream a little bit.  But I find it refreshing to ponder on truths and my life and future.  I do enjoy life a little better during the Spring, Summer and Fall, but I can't change the weather.  But being home, resting and being warm and exploring the world inside my head is something that I am good at and enjoy as much as most anything else.  I do wonder if I am getting any closer to really understanding who I am. I think so, and that makes it all the more satisfying.  I try to do it all with the frame of reference of an eternal being in a mortal experience rather than a mortal being in an eternal experience.  Those two concepts are really very different.  Try it and see if it does anything for you.  It does tend to create some very interesting questions.